Your passion cannot be questioned. We all know you have a kind heart and you’re the biggest person in the room. You care about those around you and you always put them before you because this is what you do. This is your principle. And I know you think you are a good person because you’re doing what your heart think is right.
And you’re right. It’s not your fault.
But you need to know how much and when to do it. You need to know that you gotta love yourself a little more. It’s not your fault that your efforts end up unappreciated and it’s certainly not your fault that this is frustrating. You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened… or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on. At the end, you didn’t. Simply because you are one of the good guys.
However, do know that people close to you may get hurt–namely, your mom. It’s not your fault this happened. But you’re wrong to think that you are right. Weird, eh?
If you think constantly helping and giving is right, then you are wrong. You may ask how is that selfish? Because helping people and doing nice things for them should be the opposite of selfish. Those actions are the antithesis of selfishness–they are altruistic acts of generosity.
Well, they are not. They are in fact the worst kind of selfishness out there. I can’t really put words to describe it because it’s a little difficult to do so. But I will try my best and I hope it’s not too confusing.
It’s something called being selfishly unselfish. And that turns out to be the worst type of selfishness out there. You remember the type when you cared on someone that you forgot about your family, don’t you? You end up hurting yourself because you were constantly putting others yourself while brutally neglecting your well being. At the end, you were worse off. Doing so gave you unnecessary stress and did not make you any happier because you were angry at the cold apathy you received.
Unfortunately, this is life and you have to deal with that. You don’t have to like it but you have to accept this inconvenient fact. The people who do the most for others always do the least for themselves, and ironically, the people who do the least for themselves always receive the most amount of attention.
Now go figure why.
Have a great day,